I'm a very busy person with a lot of interests and a lot to say but taking the time to actually get them down on paper, real or metaphorical is sometimes beyond me. I suffer from chronic pain and nerve damage and my full time job is on the computer. There are many days when more typing is difficult and it falls by the wayside. That said, I am determined, here at the start of 2012, to be more diligent at this process.
I want to be a writer. There, I said it, out loud, to someone more than just my mirror or my best friend. That is a big and bold statement coming from me. Not because I lack writing skill. I've been told many times that I'm good at it and I've been sought out to write in various games and competitions. But, I'm also the girl in college creative writing class that was told I couldn't write my way out of a paper bag. That hurt - what's worse, it choked my writing for nearly 20 years.
About 12 years ago, I started writing in small rpgs, just here and there and it was terrifying but I loved it at the same time. Then I graduated to short story bits and then to teaching creative rpg writing online. Now, I've moved forward to admitting that I've always wanted to be a writer and am finally going to try and make that happen.
I'm finally at an age where I don't care what anyone else thinks or says. I wear a lot of purple and don't fret about how I look in jeans or whether or not "Suzi" or "Johnny" "like" me. Maybe that's the blessing to balance some of the negatives of aging. This is freeing like nothing else I've ever experienced. I simply don't care what other people think, want or want me to be.
So, this year I will begin the task of writing. I am going to blog, to write short stories, to ramble and pontificate and see what comes out when I toss the wheat of my words up into the breeze. Might be a whole lot of chaff caught up on the bluster of nothing...but then again, there might be some healthy wheat kernals. Either way, I'll be writing and that's really the most important part. If I never get published, if I never make a dime at it, it's still better than sitting around wishing and never getting anywhere.
Just one more disclaimer as I begin this journey. I am a spiritual person. I give my Heavenly Father, my Creator and my Savior, Jesus Christ, all glory and honor with my gifts. I do not preach and I don't in general write religious material, though that might not always be the case. I said that so that you understand that reading my blog might mean you hear some of my spiritual thoughts and opinions expressed. That's my right in my blog, part of my civil and religious freedoms. If you are offended by my expression of such freedoms, then please feel free to find a different blog to enjoy and may you be blessed as you move on.
